You may have noticed, if you follow me on IG, that my posts as of late have not been focused as much on the classroom. The reason for this, dear readers, is that I recently left my teaching position. Crazy, right? I love teaching, I love being in the classroom, I love creating lessons, so why would I leave?
Well…something inside of me was telling me that at this time in my life I need to focus on my family. This was the scariest decision I’ve ever made. It was a rough beginning of the school year, and the constant hustle and bustle of teaching was leaving me feeling like I was missing out on my most important student, my daughter. I started to realize that I couldn’t be the mom, the wife, or the person I wanted to be while burning the candle at both ends. After a lot of thought and discussion, and budgeting (oh, the budgeting!), I decided to take a leave to stay home with Grace for a bit. I had many doubts, and regrets, and wondered constantly if I was making the right move, a very scary move! Very shortly after making this decision we found out we were having another baby, and everything became clear. This is definitely the right move for our family right now.
So I’ll be teaching still, but in a very different capacity. Once a teacher, always a teacher, I now spend my days as an early childhood teacher, showing Gracie how to build and explore and learn new things. I’m planning to tutor, work with students in any way I can, volunteer, and I even started substitute teaching to still have some time in the classroom with students.
I’ll also be focusing on becoming the best version of myself, not the burnt out, cranky person I noticed I was becoming. I was so stressed every weekend, never wanting to make plans because I was hoarding my time (for what I’m not sure), in an effort to recharge. I’ve already noticed in the past few weeks that I’m more giving of myself, and I like the person I see in the mirror a little bit more every day.